Strange. Very strange.

27 Feb

I never take online quizzes, mainly because I find them generic and lacking in accuracy. You can generally guess your way into creating the answer that you want.

However, I was over at Sophia’s Journal (her blog is fantastic — you should check it out) and found this quiz. I took it, and it is surprisingly accurate, even though it had the strangest questions. They were truly random, but lead to these results:
Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They’ll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that’s why you’ll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don’t focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don’t ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Strange, no?

This is what happened to my coffee after reading the results....

1,001 beautiful things — Day one.

27 Feb

I’m a downer. I don’t mean to be, but I take a very realistic view of the world — and the world isn’t always sunshine and kittens. I want to work on my negative outlook, and I think this is a good way to do it. I’m insanely nervous about a few things, and this will allow me to find one bit of beauty in every day — one beautiful thing.

New pajamas — I love hooded pajama tops, and I bought a new one yesterday. It is fairly boring, Jockey with blue stripes, but it is super soft. I’m at my grandmum’s, I just finished all of my homework, and I’m sitting here, warm and ready for bed.

Beautiful.

Via Weheartit

Nars lip pencil: Damned

26 Feb

I made a bit of an impulse purchase today — I was cold, and bored, and I went into Sephora. This is never a good thing. I have a tiny fascination with Nars, and I have been looking for a deep, non-traditional color that is still fashionable.

Today, I found it.

This is a lipstick in pencil form, something that I have not used before. I like it, and I feel that it gives me more control during application. I would not recommend using this as a lip liner, because it is too thick and seems to lack the consistency.

As a lipstick, it is beautiful. More magenta than red, but deep and luscious in a grown up way. Purple, without being grapey. I love it.

I would not recommend wearing it with large amounts of dark shadow/liner, but with a bit of mascara, black liner and beige shadow it works out beautifully.

It is a tad pricey at $24, but I think that it will be worth it.

Tattoo considerations and explanations.

25 Feb

I have always planned to get a tattoo. I plan to get a tattoo for every major life accomplishment/experience.

I believe that we experience things, and we should have some sort of physical memory. Something that shows that we were there, and are still moving.

I have yet to have a moment that deserved to be permanently etched into my skin, but I know that one is coming. Today I looked through a bunch of blogs, and I found some inspiration. I will not copy my tattoo, but I’m always curious as to the placement options.

This is one of my favorite quotes, and quite possibly my life motto

I want to put this under my left breast....


Images from Tattoologist

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Tuesday Tidbit: Fingers/Toes.

22 Feb

I paint my toenails once a week, or whenever I do my fingernails. I think that during the winter, people tend to let go of taking care of their feet — because it is cold, and their feet are always covered. I try to always keep my toes and feet in semi-nice condition. I do get the occasional blister from breaking in new shoes, or a small callous from dancing, but I try to keep them well-maintained. People notice.

To me, the little details matter. I may only show my toes when I’m putting my dance shoes on, or when I’m in the locker room at the gym, but it is a little detail that occasionally gets noticed.

Plus, I will occasionally slip my stilettos off while curled up with my Macbook in the library’s comfy chair, or if I’m cuddling someone. I want my relatively ugly feet to look as cute as possible!

Monday Muse: I love you now.

21 Feb

Lately I have been thinking about what love really is, with it being Valentine’s week and all.

I got into a conversation with a classmate, one with a four year old daughter. He said that the only real, true unconditional love is the love a parent has for their child. I argued that it isn’t true of everyone, that there are those who grew up with indifferent, if not cruel parents. My final word was “Love is a fleeting emotion.”

I dated someone who wouldn’t believe that I loved him unless I wanted to get married as soon as possible. No matter how many times I told him that I loved him, that I was committed to him, he wanted us to get married. I told him that I wanted to wait until I finished my degree, but I would be more than willing to move in with him, to make it a serious long-term relationship.

He still wouldn’t buy it, because I couldn’t promise him forever.

The thing is, no one can promise forever. No one can look into someone else’s eyes and say with complete assurance that they will feel the exact same way about them forever. People change, and feelings change.

I’m not saying that a couple can’t be together, and happy, for decades. My parents have been together for nearly 25 years. They are happy. Is their relationship the exact same as it was in the beginning? No. They have had three kids, a miscarriage, and a couple of career changes. They have each lost a parent, there has been a cancer scare, and there has been weight lost and gained. Their love is a mature one, a comfortable one.

I just have this radical idea: love for the moment. Letting the current love be enough.

If he hadn’t been so pushy about marriage, I would still be with him. I loved him. I still love him, in a way that I will always love him. He needed me to promise him something that no one can promise, and that destroyed our relationship.

This reminds me of a Lily Allen song — I Could Say. “I could say that I’ll always be here for you, but that would be a lie… I could say that I’ll always have feelings for you, but I’ve got a life ahead of me.”

Download song or entire album here

How to live well on a less than awesome budget.

21 Feb

This will probably be a two or three part post, because I have a lot of info and very little time (yay university applications!)

Recently I pulled my iPad out when I was in class, and one of my classmates kind of snorted and said “Must be nice.” I asked for an explanation. He said that it must be nice to have everything that I have, to have that sort of financial freedom. I just smiled and let it go, but I found it vaguely amusing.

See, I’m a student, fully self-supported and unfortunately unemployed. I’m paying car insurance for an old Mercedes, I’ve paid for all of my clothing, and I have paid for all of my technology. I also have a latte twice a week and have a gym membership. Not a fantastically high life, but to him, it was nicer than the average college student’s life.

My family lives in a trailer park. I contribute financially to them as well. I do not live off of my parents.

The number one most important thing:

Personal responsibility.

You cannot blame your situation on someone else and expect to do well. Ultimately, we have to decide to move beyond what has been done to us, and choose how we are going to live. Whining about how you weren’t born with money/looks isn’t going to make you more wealthy or attractive. It will make you seem obnoxious and pathetic.

Number two:

Limited pride

I have worked in management and I have worked as a waitress. Carry yourself the same way at whether you are CEO of a global power or you are taking orders at your local McDonalds. A positive, graceful attitude that is consistent is the most powerful, appealing quality. When you start looking at the world with an elitist attitude, you start to lose accessibility, and you become far less attractive. I would much rather work with or hire someone who is sure of their abilities, but humble.

I have class with this kid who thinks that he is god’s gift to humanity — that he is a visionary, that he is too smart for everyone. He is also constantly complaining about how he gets death threats and no one likes him/wants to date him. Trust me, if you are that great of a person, people will like you and want you. “Visionary” is not synonymous with “asshole.”

New phone, no post.

18 Feb

Today I bought myself a new phone, and have spent the last few hours formatting it the way I like.

Sorry for the lack of awesomeness, will be back tomorrow 🙂

How to wear a scent — for both men and women (to the guy who sits in front of me: read this!)

17 Feb

Don’t get me wrong, I love a new scent. A body spray, a glorious perfume, anything that is slightly caramel based with a bit of vanilla but not so much that I become the token vanilla chick in the room. Plus, I love to be around good smelling people.

This time of year, it seems like the go-to gift is a fragrance of some sort, for both genders. I like the idea, because it is something tangible and can be less damaging than chocolate (although an interesting body spray AND chocolate? I might love you.)

However, I went into class today and I was accosted by this overpowering wave of men’s cologne. It was terrible. I have no idea what it was, but it was so strong I wanted to gag, die, or run. Unfortunately, we had a test so I wasn’t able to go through with any of those options. The sad thing is that I really, really like the guy who was wearing it, and was sitting close to him. He is hilarious, and I would love to be friends with him. It is really too bad that whoever gave him the cologne didn’t share with him what I am about to share with you.

There are a few different types of perfume, and wiki has one of the most clear break-downs;

Perfume extract, or simply perfume (Extrait): 15-40% (IFRA: typical 20%) aromatic compounds
Esprit de Parfum (ESdP): 15-30% aromatic compounds, a seldom used strength concentration in between EdP and perfume
Eau de Parfum (EdP), Parfum de Toilette (PdT): 10-20% (typical ~15%) aromatic compounds, sometimes listed as “eau de perfume” or “millésime”
Eau de Toilette (EdT): 5-15% (typical ~10%) aromatic compounds
Eau de Cologne (EdC): Chypre citrus type perfumes with 3-8% (typical ~5%) aromatic compounds
Perfume mist: 3-8% aromatic compounds (typical non-alcohol solvent)
Splash and After shave: 1-3% aromatic compounds

These differences are the reason why you can spriz on fifteen squirts of body splash and have only the lightest bit of scent, and can have a small EdP last for ages because you only need a drop.

The unfortunate part of all of this is that you get used to a scent after a while — which is why you find lovely older women who smell as though they have bathed in their Shalimar. The truth is that you really only need one spray or so of a rich fragrance like that, and it will probably last all day.

My rule of thumb is this: if there is the slightest question, use one full spray less than what you were planning to use. It is much, much better to use too little than too much.

I also like to test a new scent on a trusted friend. It always helps to have a friend who will tell you that even though you love those pants, they hate you. These friends are usually just competitive enough to keep you on your toes, but are sporting enough to want you to have an equal shot. You don’t want someone who you have bad history with, or bad things happen.

I personally prefer to test it on a close male friend, one that I am not romantically involved with. It gives me perspective. I don’t really like picking out a scent with someone I’m dating, because I tend to equate scent with a strong memory. If things end poorly, I don’t want to forever cringe away from a certain scent.

(I must admit, I once told a “friend” that these terrible white, skin-tight skinny jeans that she was trying on looked good. This was after she told me that my body was too unfortunate for fashion, because I have a larger chest and no butt, but an hourglass shape from the front. Tip: don’t ask for advice from someone you just insulted. It is a bad, bad idea. I’m not usually this mean, and I am usually quite honest.)

Bottom line: Even the best scent is terrible when overpowering. When you first purchase a scent, figure out how many squirts/dabs you need for the perfect scent. Never, ever go over that, because it probably isn’t the scent that has changed. Your ability to smell it has.