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4 Mar

I over think everything. I did poorly on a test this term because I changed three answers before I turned in a test — answers that I had gotten right in the first place, but I finished the test way before everyone else did and re-thought everything. I would have had a perfect score if I hadn’t changed it.

I’m panicking over my Georgetown application — thinking of everything I could have, or should have added. I’m fairly certain that I will be rejected, and I’m already devastated — they haven’t even received my application yet.

I had planned to keep my life and my fashion/beauty blogging separate. I was doing that to be more appealing to the reader, more interesting. Honestly? This is who I am. I am not just sky-high stilettos and shockingly bright lipsticks. I am a living, breathing human being.

I panic over school and finances. I wonder if I am attractive or obnoxious, if I annoy the people around me and if I will be successful. I get a cold every now and then, and I get tired. I get frustrated when people cut me off in traffic, and I like my coffee burning hot and my water ice cold.

I am an extremist. This is my life.

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1,001 Beautiful Things: Days five and six

3 Mar

I’m attempting to die at the moment, and I fell asleep with my computer last night! I’m drinking lots of tea and overdressing like mad to maintain my usual all-out speed, but I’m soooo ready for the weekend!

#5: Mailing out something of importance. Yesterday I mailed out my transfer application to Georgetown University. I’m at a community college at the moment, and I’m a bit nervous about my chances of being accepted. However, I’m almost relieved that it is out of my hands, although I keep remembering about a billion and a half things I could have/should have added to make it stronger.

It is finished, and now I sit and panic.

#6: Dinosaur egg oatmeal. I don’t like oatmeal, but my siblings love it. I walked out to the kitchen to get coffee this morning, and my sister was heating water. I saw her bowl on the table, and her oatmeal had little speckled eggs on it. I watched her pour the water and stir it in, and then something awesome happened: The eggs hatched into little dinosaur shapes. It was adorable.

These are the things that make life beautiful.

Tuesday Tidbit: Dressing to impress.

1 Mar

I always find it vaguely surprising when people show up in things like ratty sweatpants or pajama pants. I realize that it is a community college, but I try not to leave the house looking too terrible. My fall back outfit is a fitted fleece sweatshirt that I got on sale for about $5, a pair of dark skinny jeans, and a clean walking/running shoes of some kind. Whenever I go out like that, I always try to make sure that my hair looks good, and I am wearing a bit of makeup.

Why?

Because I have met people who I never would have guessed I would meet while out and about. Even if you don’t think that you are going to see anyone, you should prepare for it.

My classmates sometimes disgust me, because they put forth no effort whatsoever. I’m not asking for them to spend a lot of money, but for them to put an effort in. These are the instructors that are going to be giving you a recommendation for the next step. Wearing worn-out spongebob pajama pants and a torn up sweatshirt while playing WoW isn’t going to impress them.

Maybe I take it too seriously, but I recently interviewed for a position at my gym, in an area that I never work out in/go near. The woman interviewing me recognized me, and said that she had seen me a few times before, working out. She said two or three times throughout the course of the interview that I am very regal, and that is what she thought when she saw me working out. I wear Target workout gear. Trust me, I’m not trying to impress.

But I always put my hair in a neat ponytail or braid, and I come in after class, so I have a bit of makeup on. Just enough to say that I realize that I am in public, and in view.

I would much rather be overdressed than underdressed if I have an impromptu meeting.

Strange. Very strange.

27 Feb

I never take online quizzes, mainly because I find them generic and lacking in accuracy. You can generally guess your way into creating the answer that you want.

However, I was over at Sophia’s Journal (her blog is fantastic — you should check it out) and found this quiz. I took it, and it is surprisingly accurate, even though it had the strangest questions. They were truly random, but lead to these results:
Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They’ll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that’s why you’ll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don’t focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don’t ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Strange, no?

This is what happened to my coffee after reading the results....

Tattoo considerations and explanations.

25 Feb

I have always planned to get a tattoo. I plan to get a tattoo for every major life accomplishment/experience.

I believe that we experience things, and we should have some sort of physical memory. Something that shows that we were there, and are still moving.

I have yet to have a moment that deserved to be permanently etched into my skin, but I know that one is coming. Today I looked through a bunch of blogs, and I found some inspiration. I will not copy my tattoo, but I’m always curious as to the placement options.

This is one of my favorite quotes, and quite possibly my life motto

I want to put this under my left breast....


Images from Tattoologist

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24 Feb

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Tuesday Tidbit: Fingers/Toes.

22 Feb

I paint my toenails once a week, or whenever I do my fingernails. I think that during the winter, people tend to let go of taking care of their feet — because it is cold, and their feet are always covered. I try to always keep my toes and feet in semi-nice condition. I do get the occasional blister from breaking in new shoes, or a small callous from dancing, but I try to keep them well-maintained. People notice.

To me, the little details matter. I may only show my toes when I’m putting my dance shoes on, or when I’m in the locker room at the gym, but it is a little detail that occasionally gets noticed.

Plus, I will occasionally slip my stilettos off while curled up with my Macbook in the library’s comfy chair, or if I’m cuddling someone. I want my relatively ugly feet to look as cute as possible!

Monday Muse: I love you now.

21 Feb

Lately I have been thinking about what love really is, with it being Valentine’s week and all.

I got into a conversation with a classmate, one with a four year old daughter. He said that the only real, true unconditional love is the love a parent has for their child. I argued that it isn’t true of everyone, that there are those who grew up with indifferent, if not cruel parents. My final word was “Love is a fleeting emotion.”

I dated someone who wouldn’t believe that I loved him unless I wanted to get married as soon as possible. No matter how many times I told him that I loved him, that I was committed to him, he wanted us to get married. I told him that I wanted to wait until I finished my degree, but I would be more than willing to move in with him, to make it a serious long-term relationship.

He still wouldn’t buy it, because I couldn’t promise him forever.

The thing is, no one can promise forever. No one can look into someone else’s eyes and say with complete assurance that they will feel the exact same way about them forever. People change, and feelings change.

I’m not saying that a couple can’t be together, and happy, for decades. My parents have been together for nearly 25 years. They are happy. Is their relationship the exact same as it was in the beginning? No. They have had three kids, a miscarriage, and a couple of career changes. They have each lost a parent, there has been a cancer scare, and there has been weight lost and gained. Their love is a mature one, a comfortable one.

I just have this radical idea: love for the moment. Letting the current love be enough.

If he hadn’t been so pushy about marriage, I would still be with him. I loved him. I still love him, in a way that I will always love him. He needed me to promise him something that no one can promise, and that destroyed our relationship.

This reminds me of a Lily Allen song — I Could Say. “I could say that I’ll always be here for you, but that would be a lie… I could say that I’ll always have feelings for you, but I’ve got a life ahead of me.”

Download song or entire album here

How to wear a scent — for both men and women (to the guy who sits in front of me: read this!)

17 Feb

Don’t get me wrong, I love a new scent. A body spray, a glorious perfume, anything that is slightly caramel based with a bit of vanilla but not so much that I become the token vanilla chick in the room. Plus, I love to be around good smelling people.

This time of year, it seems like the go-to gift is a fragrance of some sort, for both genders. I like the idea, because it is something tangible and can be less damaging than chocolate (although an interesting body spray AND chocolate? I might love you.)

However, I went into class today and I was accosted by this overpowering wave of men’s cologne. It was terrible. I have no idea what it was, but it was so strong I wanted to gag, die, or run. Unfortunately, we had a test so I wasn’t able to go through with any of those options. The sad thing is that I really, really like the guy who was wearing it, and was sitting close to him. He is hilarious, and I would love to be friends with him. It is really too bad that whoever gave him the cologne didn’t share with him what I am about to share with you.

There are a few different types of perfume, and wiki has one of the most clear break-downs;

Perfume extract, or simply perfume (Extrait): 15-40% (IFRA: typical 20%) aromatic compounds
Esprit de Parfum (ESdP): 15-30% aromatic compounds, a seldom used strength concentration in between EdP and perfume
Eau de Parfum (EdP), Parfum de Toilette (PdT): 10-20% (typical ~15%) aromatic compounds, sometimes listed as “eau de perfume” or “millésime”
Eau de Toilette (EdT): 5-15% (typical ~10%) aromatic compounds
Eau de Cologne (EdC): Chypre citrus type perfumes with 3-8% (typical ~5%) aromatic compounds
Perfume mist: 3-8% aromatic compounds (typical non-alcohol solvent)
Splash and After shave: 1-3% aromatic compounds

These differences are the reason why you can spriz on fifteen squirts of body splash and have only the lightest bit of scent, and can have a small EdP last for ages because you only need a drop.

The unfortunate part of all of this is that you get used to a scent after a while — which is why you find lovely older women who smell as though they have bathed in their Shalimar. The truth is that you really only need one spray or so of a rich fragrance like that, and it will probably last all day.

My rule of thumb is this: if there is the slightest question, use one full spray less than what you were planning to use. It is much, much better to use too little than too much.

I also like to test a new scent on a trusted friend. It always helps to have a friend who will tell you that even though you love those pants, they hate you. These friends are usually just competitive enough to keep you on your toes, but are sporting enough to want you to have an equal shot. You don’t want someone who you have bad history with, or bad things happen.

I personally prefer to test it on a close male friend, one that I am not romantically involved with. It gives me perspective. I don’t really like picking out a scent with someone I’m dating, because I tend to equate scent with a strong memory. If things end poorly, I don’t want to forever cringe away from a certain scent.

(I must admit, I once told a “friend” that these terrible white, skin-tight skinny jeans that she was trying on looked good. This was after she told me that my body was too unfortunate for fashion, because I have a larger chest and no butt, but an hourglass shape from the front. Tip: don’t ask for advice from someone you just insulted. It is a bad, bad idea. I’m not usually this mean, and I am usually quite honest.)

Bottom line: Even the best scent is terrible when overpowering. When you first purchase a scent, figure out how many squirts/dabs you need for the perfect scent. Never, ever go over that, because it probably isn’t the scent that has changed. Your ability to smell it has.

Monday Muse

15 Feb

I am going to start posting a little something every Monday, something that inspires me, causes me to think or makes me happy. Nothing super major, and it may be a bit mainstream, but something that makes me feel. The occasional song, a cute quote, or a picture of my cats being stupid.

I recently heard this fantastic song on the radio. I was driving along a back road at night, and I was just going through my usual stations. I hadn’t heard this song before, and I haven’t heard it on the radio since. I came straight home and downloaded it though, so it doesn’t matter. It is one of the few songs that I have on every device, and every playlist. I enjoy working out to it, and I enjoy driving home to it, waking up to it, etc. I have no idea why I have such affection for it, but I do.

The song is by Two Door Cinema Club, and is called “What You Know”

This is their website. and you can buy the single (or their whole album) from iTunes

I haven’t heard a whole lot of their other music, but it is definitely something that I will be looking into. Check them out!